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(Readers, Nolan here. After a long absence, Nick King sent the following as what he wished to be published in this issue and is extremely personal. It's not media commentary, but I'm grateful he's blowing off steam here rather than doing something stupid in private. I appreciate his sharing this. --Nolan)

Alone

Hello again, good readers. It’s been many moons since my last rant on this site. I wish to thank Nolan again for allowing me the best place I have to express myself. Now on to the matter at hand...

It’s been some time since I’ve had any kind of substantial relationship in my life. Perhaps this is because I’m not ready for one or maybe it’s just the simple fact that I’m not meant to have one. This last train of thought has been causing quite a stir in the reaches of my gray matter. There are those that say we all have a soul mate, someone that is meant to complete us in every way. And then there are those that scoff at such inane banter saying that it’s ludicrous to think that everyone has someone that they are meant for.

Personally, I believe it’s all a load of crap. For me the word love is not associated with anything positive. Only negative occurrences have come my way when my heart has been the guide. This has led me to believe that perhaps such a form of happiness is not meant for me, that I am not meant to experience such a blessed occasion. Maybe it is due to my own brand of fatalism. For many years (and you can ask my mother to verify this) I believed that I would be dead by the time I reached the age of 30. Well I’m almost 26 now so you can see that I’m not much of a prognosticator. It’s still four years away so you never can tell.

Part of me sees my friends in relationships and feels happy for them in their state of bliss. The other part of me wishes to sow misery in such a happy scene since that’s all I’ve been handed. Karma is a bitch though and things like that do tend to bite you in the ass. For my closest friends I am truly happy for them. Very few of us find someone that we can stand to be around for lengthy periods of time and have that person wish to spend equally long periods of time with us, even when we are at our worst. This is not a condemnation for the people that have spurned me.

Some things in this world are just not meant to be.

Nicholas Rex