A PUBLIC APOLOGY
Matt-
Hi, it's Lisa here. I just read last week's Rail,
and I have read nearly all of your previous ones.
I have come to the conclusion that I was SOOOO wrong
to have publically scoffed at your Freemason theories. I
was under the mistaken opinion that you were speaking
from a (what was my opinion) biased, closed-minded,
Bible-thumping point of view, and I was wrong! I can
see now, that you have given a lot of thought to your
personal, political, and religious stance, even
changing, what I KNOW to have been deep-seated
political and/or moral convictions. I am certain that
these changes in some of your fundamental beliefs must
have come as a shock, even to YOU, and they surely
must be born out of some seriously eye-opening
dissapointments in the ideals that you once held so
dear. To hear you talk of our dear Commander-in-Thief
in such a fashion makes me realize that you must have
felt seriously let-down by the senior member of your
political party, to which you were once such a loyal
member.
I want to say that I am sorry that I shot off at the
mouth without taking the time to realize that you were
so disillusioned, and that surely it would have taken
a painful enlightenment to have made you so.
I really AM sorry I was so glib and insulting in my
letter to the PCR. I owe you a public apology, and
with your permission, I would like to send a copy of
this e-mail to the PCR to be published.
I am so humbly sorry that I was so judgemental and
cruel, and I do hope you can forgive me. It was
mean-spirited of me, and was born out of past
resentments more than an objective opinion of your
views. I actually find your political/socio-religious
commentary to be well thought-out, well-researched,
and insightful.
-Lisa (Rio) Zubek
Lisa,
Thank you so much for writing to me. You certainly have my permission to send your letter, as well as this reply, to PCR. If perhaps one person out there can learn something from this exchange, then we're one person closer to being a better society. And as I stated at the time of the now famous "end times scandal", I hold nothing against anybody whatsoever for whatever view they may have taken.
You hit the bullseye when you referred to my deep seated political and moral leanings of the past. The moral leanings haven't so much changed, as much as they have evolved into something more accurate with God's scripture. My right-wing political leanings, as I've now written about several times, were completely wrong. In essence, the bitter pill I've had to swallow has pointed out to me just how ignorant, unknowledgeable, and uninsightful I was about everything having to do with not only the Republican party, but our government as a whole. In the end, the "bitter pill" ended up being the perfect medicine to take me out of my stupid indignation toward other views...as well as other people.
I remember how I used to laugh at you years ago as you would extol the virtues of your favorite Democratic candidate, and how I couldn't wait to slap down your ideals concerning them, as I paraded my conservative flag in everyone's face. To think of myself then, and a few years ago, only brings me to the point of incredible shame.
Our court-appointed president is the epitome of all that is false and wrong on this planet. The overwhelming evidence that supports this truth can't be denied. All you have to do is read and pay attention to what's going on. As I listen to CSPAN and hear my former brethren call in worshiping Bush, I think of myself, and how stupid I must have sounded back in my dark ages. His supporters see nothing other than the fact that he's a Republican, therefore, whatever he does must be correct. Only now do I realize how insane and COMPLETELY UNAMERICAN that attitude is.
Again, thanks so much for writing to me and letting me know that you understand better now where I'm coming from. But at the end of the day, the one who needs to apologize is not you, but me, for being so insensitive and thoughtless. I'm truly sorry.
God bless you,
Matthew
